Not sure even now if she realised what she said or not...

Went to doctor a few weeks ago, to get results of blood tests.
Among many things, I am anaemic.
Did I spell that correctly? Anyway, my mother knows this.
So we are sitting in a cafe (very nice cafe, btw, must go back there one day soonish)
and she says to me in passing, 'You're very blue under your eyes.'
And I reply, 'Well, I AM anaemic, mum.'

Haha!

I thought it was funny anyway.
Like when you're sick and people keep asking you if you are ok, or telling you how awful you look.

Ford Prefect would understand.
'It's a nice day'
'You're very tall.'
'So this is it, we're going to die.'

You know....
Sometimes I find that I really do think better when I am talking to someone.
Ideas keep firing off in my brain.
Like Gordon Way.
Poor man.
Poor secretary Susan at the office.
I guess Douglas Adams did have a theory about people's thinking and talking being connected.
He mentioned it in both his major series' (sp?).

The punchline is Bellosom.

Ok so I'm lazy and didn't want to type, just took this pic from cheezburger.
Thanks to the one who created this pic, I've seen similar ideas but this one is the most interesting so far.

I did this and to my surprise, my Pokemon is Bellosom!
I actually don't dislike that idea.

:)
Bellosom.
Nice!

Harumph.

I hate you sand attack.
I HATE YOU.
Anyway, pleased to be able to beat Gary a lot.
Easily too.
Even when I'm weaker than him, level wise.
He is just not the best battler, is he?
To my advantage!

Damn it I love this cat.
Hahaha!

The Bus is GREAT. If only it were on time and more frequent, and cheaper. HA!

Every day, I clamber into the warm, crowded, steamy belly of a growly, grumbly, rickety beast to hurtle through the cold, grey, (sometimes) rainy streets. It is comforting. In hot-blooded November it is too stifling, slow, slothful. In cold-hearted June it is wonderful, winderful, winterful.
That is how I feel about the bus.

One day I hope that my dream will come true for this badly-planned city, and the bus and train service (ha what a joke, service ain't in it) will meet a proper standard, and we will have lots of busses and trains that come at least every 15 minutes (a pipe-dream, I know) and will not be so expensive (that one will never happen) and will be ON TIME.
It is the only thing in this sprawling city full of politicians who give accounts and portfolios to those who use millions of dollars and then roll out ill-prepared work that does not help anyone and they procrastinate too, (take a breath now) that I really want.
Just a little rant there.

Btw, just so everyone knows because the (current) mayor wants everyone to know, Auckland is the most liveable city.
Compared to what?
He never says.

And how the jerks who apparently 'run things' manage to year after year carefully neglect to properly upgrade the embarrassing transport system in this city is beyond me.
They spend a lot on the motorways but not on the machines which would enable more people to travel on them. The traffic jams here are awful, apparently worse than New York.
How humiliating.

And I'm not even going to mention the awful mess that went on during the World Cup. I would like to apologise to everyone who was affected by that.
It's not our fault, it's the fault of those who don't put their sleeves up and get on with the messy job of sorting this all out. They just don't want to make the effort because it will be time-consuming, frustrating and expensive, three things everyone hates.
But if they did do it, I am sure it would improve things.
Since they refuse to do much, things keep steadily degenerating.

Original sprites Pkmn R and B. Weirder than I remember!

Some o' these guys are uglier than I remember.
Also some look bigger than they do later on, PORYGON!
 I'm talking about you!
:/
I think because I watched the anime a lot in the early days for about the first three or four seasons, I can't remember much about the original games!
That's kind of annoying but I still get a bit of nostalgia when I do actually remember something.
Ok gonna go to Pewter now.

Sorry man. Sorry. Had to post it. The only time I came up with a legit zinger.

My co-worker said, 'I watched Star Trek on MGM channel'.
I said, 'Original, right?'
Then I said without thinking, 'Ah, Captain Kirk is lovely! I love him! If only he didn't turn into William Shatner...'
But you know, everyone makes fun of W.Shat.
Even Shat makes fun of himself.

Does that make it ok? Or not?
Actually, just to be clear, I like him a lot.
I always watch something if I see he's in it, even if it's only a cameo.
There's just something about him.

I wonder if he and Betty White are sick of being typecast yet?
Maybe they don't mind.
It's money in their pockets, right?
Actors have to take work where they can get it.

Smoking a pipe is great.

Great night out with the guys.
Smoked my pipe, love that taste, that was my first time smoking a pipe.
TABACCO, ok? Not anything else.
Also Whiskey Liqueur. Very nice.
Cold Brewed Coffee as well!
All in all, great night.

Will probably not do it again but it's nice to have a night out once or twice a year.
I scarcely go out at night.

In other news, my fabulous friend got me a GBC.
I love it.
I'm playing Pokemon Blue, and it's great! I missed the music so much.
I don't actually miss the extra stuff like the running shoes or abilities or whatever.
Simple is good.
I was actually surprised to find that I can catch Caterpie on Route 2!
I've never done that before.
I always thought you could only get them in Viridian Forest and that was it!
Live and learn!

Guess I'll be playing Pokemon most of the day to recover from last night.
It's not that I over-indulged, but simply that I can't sleep if I don't go to bed by a certain time.
I got home at 3am THANKS BRO FOR THE RIDE BTW (he won't read this but whatever, the sentiment is there), and didn't sleep til 4am ish.
Woke up at 6ish, then again at 8 and couldn't sleep so here we are!

Blogging, watching anime on cruncyhroll (love Natsume Yuujinchou) and deciding if I should buy Nichijou (aka My Ordinary Life), or not.
Will probably buy it once I pay the dentist off.
Just so expensive here, over 50 dollars for each series...
Anime is my most expensive habit... I guess there are worse ones, and I don't watch hentai or ecchi stuff.
I'm clean!
Haha!
Just want to get all of Bishoujo Senshi Sailor Moon (the Japanese version) on dvd and then it's like, 'Ah, I have achieved everything I ever wanted out of anime or tv shows so far...'

Still here. Still alive. Great. Just grrrreat...

Well, here I am.
Still alive.
Good for me!
I have been alive for so many consecutive days, I'm expecting a medal for "most days alive since I was last not alive", any day now.
I mean really!
I almost died at least twice in my life, oops sorry forgot that time, three times.
Sorry, miscounted.
So I suppose now I should say that it's good to be alive.

Well, it isn't.

It sucks but hey it's my burden to bear so I am just bearing it.
Being alive is the bloodiest, messiest, most emotional roller-coaster I have ever known.
I hated being alive from an early age, and I still hate it.

I dislike my body, especially my emotions.
I dislike feelings and most of the smells I have to smell.
I dislike textures, and a lot of sounds.
Being autistic will do that to you.

So there we go, I said it.
Having said that, I must admit, the first time I ate cheese was nice (as was almost every other time I have been able to eat cheese).
Not sure about most other things.

My blood sometimes causes me revulsion, even when it's quietly doing it's job inside my veins.
I can't stand rather a lot of my body altogether.
I can't always tell when it's not healthy; I have fainted twice because I was dehydrated but honestly it was so hard to tell that it's not my fault!

I hate the fact that I am almost always in pain for some reason or another.
Early onset arthritis, all other kinds of problems.
I mean really, I'm quite healthy, which is the most annoying thing of all.
If there were a real reason, I could just say, 'Ah well, I'm just not very healthy or strong.'
But no! I'm actually doing well for my age, which is annoying because it just means that the human body is frail and annoying.
I can't complain to The Manufacturer, because He will just laugh at me.

I mean - I have a LIST.
A LIST, PEOPLE!
Joint and muscle pains.
Spasmodic jerky movements with no warning which makes me twitch (fortunately rarely) and look like an idiot.
My face doesn't do what normal faces do. Expressions and such.
Voice is same. Sometimes flat, or the wrong tone of voice for the situation.
I can tell, people look at me funny and I think, 'Damn, I thought the normal human thing was working'.

I get tired so much! It's ridiculous!
People tire me out.
Just trying to be alive and a normal human for another day and complete one single task without messing up somehow is exhausting.
I am not joking here.

Life hates me.
Ok, that was a joke.
People tell me life is beautiful.
I say to them. 'It's nice if you can afford it.'
That's not really true, I've never said that to anyone, but I wanted to!

I am not bitter or mean or heartless or even depressed!
Sometimes you just have to say it!
LIFE IS CRUEL AND AWFUL.
But that's all we have.
There is no other option. Not really.
Death is not like life, it's not another option, it's simply what happens after you were alive.
Well anyway, it's been interesting so far.
That's the only thing life has going for it.
Not emotion, pleasure, pain, feeling, breathing, and so on.
Sensation gets dull.

But thinking.
Thinking!
That's the good stuff.
My brain is always thinking, and quite fast.
To get it to relax, I can only read, and make it focus on one linear line of story or thought.
My curiosity and fatalism are the only two things keeping me alive.

Hope?
HAH!
Hope is as cruel as life.
If you have hope, you can and will keep going.
That in itself is frightening and cruel.

But curiosity.
That is the tricky one.
What will happen tomorrow?
Will I wish it had not happened?
I want to know, I need to know.
I want to see, I want to find out.

I can't forget the past.
I live in the present.
I want to see the future.

Maybe it's just me, I used to think I was an alien or a defective humanoid type of thing.
I knew I was different, I over-thought everything, and I felt too much.
I wondered why it was so hard to cope with simple things that others were able to pass by or take in their stride.
Now I know.
I am autistic.

Life is cruel.
I'm lucky, and I hate knowing I'm lucky.
I don't believe in luck, but I don't know if I would call it Providence either.
I don't know why I am able to have a job and work with real people who don't treat me like there's something wrong with me.
I don't know why I can live on my own and feed myself and wash and dress myself, or go out in public and no children will throw stones at me or chase me and nobody will make fun of me.
I hate being lucky sometimes, because it's a real bitch to see those who aren't.

I hate life.

People are in it.
They are so filthy, their little short-sighted minds, their desperation to keep going, to grasp greedily at everything around them, because they are afraid that 'the other guy' will screw them over if they aren't as hard as he is.
Don't they know that when they do that, they push and trample the others who are weaker, and slower, and need to be treated gently?
I know that!
But I am weak too!

I can't do anything much more than rage silently, when I see the way others are treated.
If I were only stronger, and more powerful, I have said to myself.
The problem then arises, that there is a cost to everything you want in this world.
EVERYTHING.
If I were to become strong, what would I have to lose?
I don't want to lose anything.

I need to be weak.
I NEED IT.
If I am strong, I don't need anyone or anything.
And that is NOT being human.

I can't stand it.
I am walking along the edge of humanity all the time.

Animals are great, you know. 

I just seem to get along with them rather well, quite quickly. 

EXCEPT FOR PARROTS. PARROTS CAN JUST GO TO ... WHEREVER IT IS THEY GO.

I wonder what is wrong with me?
I've always wondered what was wrong with me.
Every now and then, I think, 'Maybe there is nothing wrong with me. Maybe it's everything else that's wrong.'
I just don't fit.
That's the real problem.

Maybe it's not a problem at all.

Last three contenders for the votes. Happy Mother's Day, btw.

Winner is crowned 'The one who looks most like they feel like a sir'.

In other news, it was Mother's Day and International Nurse's Day.
I took my mum out for lunch at La Porchetta, I give that place a 6 out of 10.
Nice enough but I wanted to go to Lone Star.
It wasn't open... should've checked the times...
Ah well.
Another day.
I missed No Pants Day (May 1st, I think).
Also missed Dishwashing Liquid Appreciation Day...
I think... ?

Final voting here.
I'm tempted to just crown this kitten above.
He really makes it look good.
If you don't have strong features, a moustache just dwarfs your face, doesn't it?
...
Well, anyway, I won't vote just yet. I want to see if anyone votes.
Then I might vote against them for fun.
Or not!
:)
Happy Mother's Day, y'all.
I like typing the word 'y'all'.
Ellen DeG likes sayin' it.
Right, y'all?

Vote for your fave. Pachirisu, lookin' sharp, yes SIR!

Hmm, it's a close competition between Pachirisu, Pansage and Deerling...
I can't choose yet!

Vote with a comment if you like.
Check previous posts for other pics.

Fantastic Style. I think Pansage rocks the 'stache best so far. Closely followed by Spring Deerling.

I was bored, so here's some pics.

No comment necessary.

Avengers reassembled?

Good news, Spiderman, you too Batman. You're in the Avengers after all.
They kicked Iron Man, the loser archery guy and that Romanov gal out.
But they kept angry green big dude, blonde timotei model man and the american guy with the stupid hat.
So yeah!
No wonder they save the universe or the world or whatever!
But don't let that Superman guy in, he's a smug jerk.
Everyone hates him anyway.

Seriously, wat...
Come on China, if you make a cheap knock-off of toys and sell them at night markets and in $2 shops, at LEAST get the characters right.
I especially like how Batman is looking the other way, like he doesn't want to be there.
I wouldn't want to be next to Spiderman either, he's annoying.
Not as annoying as the Flash or Deadpool though.
Also, note down under Batman there where it says, 'Annual Masterpiece'.
WAT????
:D
ok cu later.

I love...

I love Pinterest. My only regret is that I can never really print out all of those pics onto glossy paper and make a scrapbook out of them, or decorate my house or room with them.

You can follow me on Pinterest if you like.
This is my Pinterest acc.
http://pinterest.com/nekoiyuzuriha/

:)
It's not a bad account, but there are better of course.
I'm surprised at how many people have been following my account, since I hardly update it.

If you want to leave your link for me as a comment, I'll have a look at your Pinterest too.
It's always nice to add more ppl.
Bye!

Like a ...? You know!

I found this pic somewhere... I don't like how google does image search now, its more confusing.
Anyway obviously I did not make this picture, whoever did is great, and the credit goes to them!
I came up with names for these guys though.... and I spent FAR too much time doing so.
I used puns to do with royalty or the gentry e.g. shah, tzar, lord, prince, etc.
So here goes!
Shah-mander (or maybe Charming-mander, it's cuter).
Sir-tle (or His Squirtle-ness?).
Bulba-tsar.
Duke-achu.

I feel great now.
Really great.
Kinda like a sir.
Which is quite a feat considering I am in fact, not a man.
Putting moustaches on things does make them funnier or cuter.
I will post pictures of things I have amended this dubious honour to, later on at some point.
Excited about a certain Eevolution shown with the others below!

Btw, thanks to whoever put this lovely pic on teh interwebz.

I love it. But are Sylveon's ribbons really made of flesh... ?

because I don't think that's going to help me sleep well tonight.

Also, doesn't Sylveon's name come from the word for tree? Might be wrong there.

And admit it, you bred lots of Eevee so you could have all of them as a special Eevee team, am I right?

It's kinda my dream that I could get an amazing Eevee team to crush everyone. 

Sadly, I suck at EV training and egg breeding so my dreams came to nothing. 

I was too busy naming them all to fit their look. 

Timothy was my Glaceon. My Umbreon was Marek. 

My Eevee was Peter. My Espeon was Lydia I think... forgot the rest.

For me, the minute I knew I would get an Eevee once I clocked the game, it was more of an incentive to beat the 1337 Four more than anything else.

Btw yeah I pwn3d em. 

Just having fun with leetspeak there. 

But yeah, I'm a n00b. 

I like being a n00b tho...

Btw anyone wonder where Haxorus' name came from? Cause it's leetspeak right?

Seems that may not have been intentional.

Bulbapedia says:

• Haxorus has the highest Attack base stat of all non-legendary Dragon-type Pokémon.

Origin

Its tusks are similar in appearance to Scutosaurid's or possibly Ceratopsid's cheekbone tusks and are also similar to battle axeblades. Ken Sugimori confirmed that it was based on a plant-eating dinosaur.

Name origin

Haxorus is a combination of hack (to chop or cut down), axe, and σαῦρος saurus (Greek for lizard).

Ononokus (Japanese name) may be a combination of 斧 ono (axe), 戦く ononoku (to tremble), and アックス akkusu (axe).

So no relation to being a hacker (leetspeak: haxor), at least online.

Anywayz gtg :) cu

SNSD again. Yep!

So yep, love these gals.
Not like, a LOT, but you can't ignore them easily, they are so cute!
Still like HyoYeon best.
Then I like SooYoung.
Then the rest of them.
SooYoung looked very good with shorter hair.
I don't know why she grew it back.
And there I go, treating them like every other fan, as if they are dolls!
Good grief.
Btw, just for the record (which is irrelevant, since there IS no record), I think this band is better than all the other current girl bands in Korea.
But since I'm not Korean and haven't actually studied and compared all the bands seriously at all, it's basically my lazy opinion, which is, as I have stated above, irrelevant.

Autumn...

I love the way the air smells in Autumn and Winter. Sometimes like wet grass or wet leaves. Sometimes like apples, for some reason. Even if there are no apple trees about. And sometimes, like today, the air smells like woodsmoke. I love that smell. Oh, and I started Pokemon Black 2 yesterday. Now I have all four of the gen V games, and it's just nice. 
In other news, Lilian Jackson-Braun, Rex Stout and Laura Childs. Three best things to come out of America. Unless any of 'em happen to be from Canada, in that case, my apologies. I know how it is to be called Australian, so, I feel Canada's pain. Anyway, it seems that the season for reading comfortable mystery fiction is upon me once more.
My, but that Rex Stout sure writes well, doesn't he? Quite wonderful stuff, I sure enjoy perusing his work. Books are like meals for my mind and spirit. Writing styles affect my stomach sometimes. But no danger from any of the afore-mentioned! Wonderful. I wasn't well today, so it's good to stay home, tidy my room, and rest.
One more thing, congratulations to myself for finally posting something from my cellphone. This is a momentous occasion. Thank you.
:)

So let's see... where should I start?

MY LIFE SUUUCKKSSSSSSSSSS...
I wanted to buy HeartGold but none of the shops have a copy now except one lousy second-hand copy without the pedometer. AND WHO THE HELL WANTS SOMEONE'S USELESS GREASY, USED, SECOND-HAND COPY???????? THEY SHOULDN'T BE ALLOWED TO RETURN IT WITHOUT THE PEDOMETER!!!!!! ALSO, IT'S A FAR AWAY SHOP THAT'S LIKE AN HOUR'S BUS RIDE FROM MY PLACE, WHY SHOULD I GO THAT FAR? AND ALSO, IT CAN'T BE RELEASED UNTIL TOMORROW, BUT I HAVE WORK SO NO WAY!
Bastids. Caps are fun.
And so I'm depressed. 
Also Nintendo Club won't let me login, they even refuse to acknowledge my email address, have I lost the few points I managed to scratch together by buying expensive stuff? I finally had enough points to get a facecloth. After spending over 500 REAL dollars, I might add.
My cellphone won't transfer my pictures off it's camera to my computer, it keeps freezing up, piece of JUNK!
And also, my stupid EB Games account thing treats me like Nintendo. I.e.; badly. It says my password is wrong even though its a new password they just generated for me that stupid thing.
I HATE MY LIFE.
MY LIFE HATES ME.
Also, my friend who I haven't seen in ages, got sick and cancelled our cafe hangout! And today may have thunderstorms!
I HATE MY LIFE, I HATE EVERYTHING.
Except you know, good stuff.
Like how yesterday I roundly beat the Unova leaders PWT and the Kanto PWT too. And the Single Battle PWT for Mistralton. They were all easy but for some reason, it felt like I had achieved something momentous. I mean, I had butterflies in my stomach from nervousness, and usually I don't feel like that because most Pokemon in-game battles are easy. 
Oh also I beat the Single Train at Gear Station, but only up to a 14-win streak so far. I'm scared to fight the Subway Bosses, because in my Black game, I have this thing where I can beat everyone up to the boss, then get beaten by the boss. So I trained up Pokemon especially to beat the bosses' Pokemon, only to be beaten before I could reach either of them. 
WHICH SUCKSSSSS, and leads me back to a hauntingly familiar remark here. 
I HATE THINGS THAT SUCK. LIKE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!

Anyway, how are YOU?

:)

I thought about changing my font, but I'm scared I have Hipster-ish tendencies (mostly because I have glasses and like skirts) and may accidentally pick that font that everyone says is Hipster-ish, is it Helvetica? 
I DON'T WANT TO BE A HIPSTER!  
But if I were, I would have been one before people thought it was cool. 
Apparently, Hipster is the new mainstream. 
That always seems to happen with that kind of thing, doesn't it? 
I'm glad being an awkward person with Aspergers is not considered cool enough to copy, or I might have an identity crisis.