Prayer etc

"One of the great uses of Twitter and Facebook will be to prove at the Last Day that prayerlessness was not from lack of time." - John Piper
-Thanks Jessie for letting me steal this from you! And Felicity for stealing it first!
Facebook is finally useful.
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Man it hurts, this quote!
Haha I love it. It's true!
But my main reason for not praying is also the fact that I feel useless. I need to read 'The Dark Night of the Soul' by St John of the Cross. It helps. He fairly reveled in every emotion he ever felt! Well, I think he was Spanish. Is that racist?
Anyway it's true, I'm also lazy enough to not pray.
I'd better pray now. I like to talk to God because I don't interrupt Him (I sometimes accidentally run over other people's sentences...). But He hardly ever talks at all. And when He does, it's straight to the point.
He's great.
Probably my favourite person, and totally my fave deity.
Oh man, I saw all these books I want real bad. A Gk Heb Eng Bible... a lexicon! <3 <3 <3 <3 wantitwantitwantit...! I might save up.

Cities, finance, economics, oh my!

Oh man, after looking up maple trees and cherry trees on Google images, I am so happy! it's like I just ate a satisfying meal. The colours... the maple especially. It really is one of my faves. I didn't post all the pics so I will add more.
Anyway, I found a really interesting Blog about Japan. It's in the Blogs I'm following, on that list. http://kanagawaphoto.blogspot.com/
I love seeing other cities. Cities are something else I love to look at photos of. I just like to look at the lights mostly. Cities at night... the lights shine in the darkness, and we try to forget the filth, greed and misery that cities generate. I don't want to be a downer... but I do wish governments would encourage (and by that I mean really help with monetary support and so on, not just pledge to help) yes, encourage people to move out of the cities and back to the countryside. If you think about it, the farms are what are feeding the cities. The cities are like alien leeches, sucking resources from the pure land.
Obviously I am simplifying a bit but I can honestly say, having learned a bit about History, that although cities do further the progress of nations, the land and farming is what keeps a nation alive. In my country, New Zealand, we make a lot of money by exporting dairy and meat. Yet we are charged a lot to buy that same stuff in our supermarkets. That seems unfair.
Of course I don't understand economics. But very large amounts of money and figures are mostly imaginary, otherwise they could not be controlled as they apparently are. After the international recession, didn't some bigwigs reset the whole thing to get it all back on a even keel? Which proves my point. I bet I'm probably wrong but even so... I bet if certain people wanted to, they could help fix debts and we could all start over. A Jubilee year! I'd love that! Clean slate for all. Oh God... make it happen! Better yet, just come back and we can all be free of such cares.

Momiji and Sakura

I really love pictures of Japanese Maple trees and Cherry trees.
Those are my two favourite patterns for images or material. But also I enjoy looking at photos occasionally.
I looked them both up in Google image search and here are some nice pictures I found.
All copyright and so on to each original photographer (too many to name and on the Internet, anyone can claim what they like). Obviously, I am not claiming ownership or anything over these pics. Some of these are in America, rather than Japan.
My favourite would be the one of the snowy leaf.

Graduation

I have not graduated from anything before, not even college/high school.
This will be my first time to finish a course of study properly and it was 3 years as well. I'm happy. I am going now to get my gown and cap and have a photo taken at the school. A Bachelor of Arts. Lovely! Graduated April 10th, 2010. Yay! I have makeup on and I hardly ever wear that too. I detest having makeup on my face, because it means I can't scratch my nose or whatever (I suppose I dislike having makeup on anywhere else besides my face but it's never really an issue). I also dislike makeup because people always say that I look good in it. That makes me angry because I take it to mean that nobody can look good without makeup. I believe I look nice without it so I try not to wear it in case people trick me into thinking like them with too many compliments. I don't want to think like other people or I will stop seeing beauty everywhere.
Grad-u-a-tion! <3<3<3

Aspergers

I think a lot of people may have Aspergers and not know. This is especially the case for women because we have more of a social sense and try harder to fit in. Therefore it is not noticed. We are quite insecure anyway (women, I mean), so we don't really think much of our extra feelings of confusion or guilt or failure which usually accompany Aspergers. As for me, I had suspicions for a year or so (to be honest, about 8 years...)and then I went to see a specialist. He confirmed that yes I do have it and the good news is that I'm high functioning. 'HIGH FUNCTIONING? IS THAT SOME KIND OF JOKE?' I wanted to scream. Is it 'high functioning' if you embarrass yourself constantly (and I mean every day, more than once a day) with social gaffes and if you still can't swim at all or dance a full set without making a mistake? I can't even do aerobics! I'm 29 years old and I have never been in a real relationship. I mean it, not the way women say it so often (meaning that they always pick duds). I mean I have NEVER been able to relate to males well enough to even have a boyfriend or go on a date. Hell, I can't relate to females well either. I can't even relate to myself very well! And I bet people if they even read this (which most may never) would say, 'Yes, but everyone has these kinds of problems.' I'm telling you now, person. You have NO idea. I was so humiliated when I was a child because I couldn't tie my shoelaces. I was not 5. I was not 7. I was about 10 or 11 years old. My sister did it faster and she was four years younger than me. I finally got it but I understand why some people with different types of handicaps just buy velcro shoes or slip ons. I remember. I want to always remember all the pain and the problems. I don't want to forget because if I do, then I will not be able to help anyone who still has those problems. I'm grateful I still have a lot of problems actually, because it enables me to retain some sense of empathy.
Well, thats enough about that for now. I will post more things later because I want to talk about this and I hope if anyone reads it and it helps them somehow then it will be useful.
I hope it is...

First post for 2010

This might be my last post... I always forget my blog...
yeep!
God thanks for everything so far. I'm happy. It's enough, it's all enough.
I have done a lot since I first started this blog.
I discovered I have Asperger syndrome after I finally got over the depression. Haha!
Good times...
Anyway I actually can't be bothered to write much right now.
I should clear out my old posts but I think I will keep them even though they are embarrassing. Some of them are funny.
It's part of me and reminds me of how I was and how I am. I forget so much these days. I wonder why? I must be a moment person.
Nite, God, nite everyone.

Bless you
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